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I was thinking while walking my dog tonight and you know I'm really selfish....because look...my thinking problem was that I don't really have point about beeing so jealous...and so I put all my facts together and suddenly realised that I'm selfish, and not jealous as I thought...really bad to know that, specially about my self!!
So look, the thing that made me reach that conclusion is: I don't really see my self dating or really loving him(like I used to), and I really want him to be as happy as someone can be, because he really is my best friend, he knows me sometimes better than I do, it is of course a bit of jealousy, but all this make me think that is all about beeing selfish...you know, I don't whant him to have someone because he will left me alone, and maybe I don't whant him to have someone because I don't have someone....that's a really awful way to think, and believe me...I feel really embarrassed to say this here because I'm no way proud of it! NO WAY! -
So, that leads us back to this text very first lines...I don't have a point to be so rude, and all this things that I'm, and I know I'm loads of things...
Yeah....all I can say, with all my heart, besides the usual, but true I LOVE YOU is that I'm really, really, really sorry....you have no idea how bad I'm feeling right now, I'm trully so so so so Sorry!!!! Please be happy and please do not live me for beeing so rude all the time.

So, continuing my thought, the conclusion I've reached is from now on, I'll always be queit and polite.

That's all.....for now at least....and just to say, here's a tip...this text is in english 'cuz I know specially you will understand!!!

Thanks for evrything ;)