i wont sing love, if does not exist!

so okay its been a wile i dont post any thing in here...
a few thing had happened...not the good the good ones but, you know...i cant complain any ways...
for example im posting via macbook, but my macbook not any mac book.....THIS ONE IS MINE!!!!all mine, payed with my money...my fuck sweet money....okay...thats the good part....and pretty much the only one.....yeah...
so you know....i have not much to say, but....im not all happyness....again...a few friends left...dont know if i can trust them all...
the few i knew i could trust, passed me away, i guess that one wanst good to trust...any ways, the one i know really will always be with me, is really far....and you know i have lots of friends...amazing ones...but....i fell incomplete....
maybe, you know, im hopping that when i get in london it will get better....so wanna cry right now...but you know, if i cry....it wont fix anything....i fell cold...but not because of the weather...well also cuz of the weather...but i fell cold in side....i dont feel happy at home, i dont fell happy at college, i dont fell happy at work, i dont fell happy when im with my friends...yes i have some good laughs...but that doesnt mean happyness...like at all!!!!!
what i mean is.....i dont know what i really mean......i miss my school days....i miss friends...i miss.....ME!!!!!


THATS RIGHT, I MISS ME!!! I MISS MY SELF....

im not this crazy, old, cranky, mis-loved woman.....hell NOT!!!!!!!

damn it!!!!

"i wanna hear you say that you are sorry again, i wanna hear you say that im so much better than you" - hole


oh fuck no one read this anyways.....
but i wont say what im thinking....just to keep my dignity.....you know right!

my itunes really dont feel me cuz its just sad songs......

"cuz u dont know what u've got untill it's gone"

YEAH...THATS A LOT ITUNES!!!!!!!

oh now im good thats what im talking about itunes... playing velvet revolver....

okay.....what ever....
im gonna download some demi lovato songs...and i dont care what you think about that, or about me now that you read that....undo this ugly face you just did when you read "demi lovato" try to listen some music, pay attention to the lyrics...and then you can tell me that im ridiculous....yes thats right, im rude....so what?