HARDER, BETTER, FASTER, STRONGER - DAFT PUNK

im too narcissist so i must post a few photos of my self......because, you know......IM BEAUTIFUL!!! ahahahaha


MUM AND DAD'S WEDDING... ^^'


GUMMY WORMS...YAAAAAAY!! =)


MOUSTACHEEE! ={)

MEEEEEE =)



CAN YOU FIND ME?


AND LAST BUT NOT LEAST, DON'T YOU FORGET




ALL RIGHT, WHO EVER SAID TO YOU IM ANY KIND OF WHAT YOU CALL "NORMAL"......IS A LAIR!!!!
- HAPPY NEW YEAR!

THE DOG DAYS ARE OVER!!

Another year goes by...this one i may say really slowly, but finally ended...
a lot of thing happened, most of them im not really through.....but anyways as some say we must get through it and go ahead...easy for they to say, well....
Apparently i have a great power of ruining friendships, yeah, that's quite my thing...jessica, yuri, and recently thiago, congrats to me! but hey, maybe, just maybe it isn't my fault, ANYWAY!
This post it is not to discuss my ability to maintain friends, who i considered BEST, and now they're gone....This post it is mostly for me to write what is in my heart, as always, cus i really don't have any one left to share this kind of thing, im not really complaining, im just saying....

three days from now, im going to be in a plane on my way to DISNEYLAND!!! fuck yeah! I still can't believe it...for real!

I know it isn't thanksgiving, we don't even have this in this shitty country, BUT, im going to say a few thing im thankful for, in this year.

- Im Thankful for my mum, first and always, she's such a strong woman.
- Im thankful for my tattoo
- thankful for my job
- thankful for rodrigo, that always make me feel so beautiful and young.

that's what i can remember right now...lol


I'd like to say to jessica, i still miss you, less and less every day, but i still do, a lot... the good things with you it was that, i was never left home, and i felt like i had a FRIEND really, who i could cry, you were the one who listened to me, no matter how non sense i was. unfortunately it ended like it ended...now seeing your pics, i just don't see the same you...weird. And i can't pass once by R. augusta with out thinning of you..lol WEIRD, funny!

I'd like to say to yuri, you were the most WEIRD part of my year, we were friends for long YEARS....and out of nowhere we got together again, and it was the most exciting part of my year, i was unbelievably happy, FOR REAL...
I didn't had to pretend nothing, and even if i tried to, you'd know, you always knew...you of all ppl knew me!!
I miss you just in the most ridiculus way possible, I seriously just can't describe! I WISH you could see my hair now, is so big, I WISH i could share with you my excitement about Disney, and Harry Potter and the DH part 1, and i miss talking to you the whole night, i miss talking to you about sushi...=/ JUST MISS YOU A LOT.... and i hate that im crying the hell out of me right now, writing this fuck.

I'd Like to say to thiago, cant believe i thought you were really changed, i miss you truly!



- 2010 were NOTHING as i expected it to be, it turned out really, not cool.....
- i didn't passed this semester in college
- i didn't got to lose weight


I WONT COMPLAIN, IM TRYING TO LEARN WITH ALL THIS, AND JUST GO ON!!!!


I'll be just like those great women i see on TV and Series, and Books, and BE FIERCE!!!


you know what?

I could really use a hug right know.....


now i must go, my nephew's hungry..... lol


HAPPY 2011 - BE HAPPY, BE YOU, BE FIERCE, BE TRUE, BE FAITHFUL, BE GOOD, LOVE AND BE LOVED, MOST IMPORTANT LAUGH!!

lost in the moment you disappear

im whole lot different from who i was in those lest posts......i've moved on from davi, im determined to reach my aim, i still miss yuri, and as u can see i don't give damn any more, so i can say the names i want, I DONT FUCKING CARE who read this....
im whiting because i want to, and you're reading because you want to, so if u don't like it..... FUCK OFF!!!
my essence is still pretty much the same, im the same girl, stupid, dreamy, all the same....just more in the "i don't care" stile......
apparently i've lost two of my dearest friends, yuri and thiago, who i deepest loved, and still do....don't fucking know why, but if im not good enough for you guys im sorry......you were just right to me....well.... =/ what can I do, right?

i wanted t do a post for yuri's birthday, which was november 23th [?] and i still plan do to so, is just that im really going crazy about exams and every thing, too much going on right now... =/ but imma do it soon!

i have to study evolution right now, so i post more next week, when im over with this final exams!!!



oh, i have news......im going to disney in january 2 by the way!!!! \o/ couldn't be happier!

here I am

here i am, but for how long i cant tell you...cuz' im not quite sure!
after all this time with out posting not even a picture, i can say that nothing really changed...so if you wanna now what's up...read the previous posts....

but you now, once again its good to just inform that this blog is purely of me to clean my heart, though no one reads this shit, what matters is that im good by writing it anyways....

so right now, i can say that the worst fear i've ever had....it became true......i fell like i have absolutely no friends...i only have ppl to hang out with, but none of then really cares whats going on with me....you know, i fell like i have no fucking shoulder to lean on....besides my moms......thats fucking sad....and thats mostly why i want to get out of this fucking country hell!!

id rather have an indian friend(nothing against indians this is just an example) then stay in brazil with no true friends at all....

you know, jessica could be anything(and she surely was) but besides all that shit, she was a nice, good friend...and then all the shit happened, and i was with out a friend.....then i re-met yuri and it felt better then jessica's time...then aaaaaall the shit happened again....
so i guess im due to be shitty....it okay, im gonna be over it, as soon as i get OUT OF THIS FUCKING COUNTRY!!!!

i express my self better in english anyways, so i dont belong here!!! im due to be royalty!!!!! sorry!


the good news...

-november 5th im going to rio de janeiro to try to get my US Visa so i can....
- go to Disney in january!!!!!!!!


hell yeah you people! im going to disney land...to see THE WIZARDING FUCKING WORLD OF HARRY POTTER!!!!!!!


plus, im preparing all of my stuff to go to london in two years hopefully!!!



thats pretty much it!!!


XOXO ;)

eu tenho medo do inseguro

eu to me sentindo tao idiota esses dias....tem tanta coisa passando pela minha cabeça...
eu acho que vou escrever em ingles, pq eu acho que me expresso melhor assim....sei la
bom, nao, vai ser em portugues mesmo que é p todo mundo conseguir ler!
quer saber?
esse final de semana eu ouvi alguem me dizer: "toma uma atitude uma vez na vida"
e eu acho que ele ta certo viu?....eu devia mesmo? pq eu sempre ensaio dizer tudo oq eu tenho p dizer, mas nao eh o espelho e nem o meu travesseiro que precisam ouvir!
ta, mas beleza nao vai ser hj q eu vou gritar nomes e zaz aki....
eu devia mesmo sair, chegar e pa falar tudo q eu sempre quis. mas pra que?
pra eu faria isso? se no fundo, no fundo, eu SEI que nao adianta!
eu sei que ele nao liga, eu sei que pra ele tanto faz, eu sei que pra ele oq vale mesmo eh o sexo, eu sei pra ele eu sou uma amiga mto legal, eu sei, eu sei de tudo isso...=/
mas e dai? qq eu posso fazer? esquecer n da po, nao eh assim que funciona....toma no cu viu, pq comigo?
pq sempre comigo? vai ser otaria assim na puta que pariu

ah eu falo palavrao mesmo, nem ligo que ninguem le essa bagunça aqui....

mas pra mim eh diferente pra mim oq importa nao eh o sexo, e nem oq parece, ou oq os outros pensam....nada disso importa pra mim....alias para mim eh bem pouco que importa...

eu qria sabe? nao precisar passar por isso, e ja que to tendo que passar qria que fosse mais simples, eu com ele, ele cmg...
ah ja perdi todo o sentindo nesse negocio aqui...como sempre!

enfim, eu devia mesmo tomar uma atitude uma vez na vida, so no qria foder tudo de vez, deixa pra la vai...
ja falei demais, e se eu ler tudo mais uma vez eu apago tudo.....

hunf

e so p descontrair o ambiente:

eu e o pedro henrique(sobrinho)

mais uma so pra descontrair mais um pouco?
hein?
eu rio na cara do perigo! como ja dizia o simba no rei leao 1 ne...ahahhahahahaha
so espero que nao apareçam hienas tentando me comer, como no filme,,, ;)


mais uma? mais uma? vc gosta de ver o circo pegar fogo né?
entao tá mais uma!


hahahahaha nã nã nina nao, mas ne, é como dizem, fica sempre a dica ai ne......ou nao!

im always gonna wanna blow your mind

the title is a song by train called hey, soul sister!
listen, it's a really good song, at least I like it, you should give it a try!
So after a long time, here I am posting something totally non-sense, but at least posting, come on!!..hahahaha
nothing really good happened to me this days...
just the usual, job, college, stressed a lot...family/friends issues...nothing to different from others lives..I hope!

Oh, I know something that I didn't posted here yet....I'm the official photographer of the P.D.I band...now u may ask me, "hey, Mariana, what freaking band is that?" so I answer you, they're not famous, yet I hope...hahahaha it is my friends band...
and may I say a pretty good band, they're getting really better...so I may post some pics latter...if I feel like it. of course

I just started a new semester in college and, it seems that is gonna be hard, again, I don't know really...you see, I love biology, but it's like biology doesn't love me back...or I'm really stupid...I'm such a bad student..I try so hard....but nothing seems to work...I must try harder its the best I can do....


and once again, I can't wait to go to London...I feel like I don't belong here....maybe I don't belong there either...but I'll just know that when I get there, so I must go....and actually I don't plan getting back here to this mess we call brazil....
there in england may not be the best country, but hey...I hope it's better then in here, and may I say, I believe it is!!!

how ever it is, is there I want to be....is where I want to live, to work, to try my infinity best, to study more and harder, to date, to go out, to drink and get drunk, to have sex, to marry, to make my life happen!!!!!!!!
And pretty soon I hope...
thats why I'm working as hell, in something I don't even like, AT ALL.....
I'm saving all my money, I'm studying english, that's what I pray every night for, that's what I dream of every freaking time I put my red head in my pillow....that's my dirty little secret...maybe not so dirty and not even secret...but fucking yeah IM GOING TO LONDON, NO MATTER WHAT!!!!!


oh well...another thing I must say... I freaking hate pms...at first I get really rude, and angry..then, I just want to cry about every little thing(like right now) and in the end I get all happy and dirty...ahahahaha if you know what I mean...

so yeah....
that's a fucking big post, for someone who don't have anything to say...but that's what a blog is for right?
so I can say what ever I want....and so I did it!


aaaaaaand that's the end for today folks!


e pra vc que não sabe ler inglês, vá aprender, estamos século XXI(21, pra vc que não sabe números romanos) já passou da hora de você saber a língua mais falada no mundo, ou vc acha q vai longe falando um português mal falado?

E para você que só gosta de ver fotos...que bom, pq eu adoro postar fotos =)

me and my nephew Pedro...i miss him!

who gives a fuck?

Oxford Comma
by Vampire Weekend


Who gives a fuck about an Oxford comma?
I've seen those English dramas too
They're cruel
So if there's any other way
To spell the word
It's fine with me, with me

Why would you speak to me that way
Especially when I always said that I
Haven't got the words for you
All your diction dripping with disdain
Through the pain
I always tell the truth

Who gives a fuck about an Oxford comma?
I climbed to Dharamsala too
I did
I met the highest lama
His accent sounded fine
to me, to me

Check your handbook
It's no trick
Take the chapstick
Put it on your lips
Crack a smile
Adjust my tie
Know your boyfriend, unlike other guys

Why would you lie about how much coal you have?
Why would you lie about something dumb like that?
Why would you lie about anything at all?
First the window, then it's to the wall
Lil' Jon, he always tells the truth

Check your passport
It's no trick
Take the chapstick
Put it on your lips
Crack a smile
Adjust my tie
Know your butler, unlike other guys

Why would you lie about how much coal you have?
Why would you lie about something dumb like that?
Why would you lie about anything at all?
First the window, then it's through the wall
Why would you tape my conversations?
Show your paintings
At the United Nations
Lil' Jon, he always tells the truth




-----best songs ever!!!

Listen to them....Vampire Weekend Really awesome!!!!
I could post all of their songs here...LOL

i wont sing love, if does not exist!

so okay its been a wile i dont post any thing in here...
a few thing had happened...not the good the good ones but, you know...i cant complain any ways...
for example im posting via macbook, but my macbook not any mac book.....THIS ONE IS MINE!!!!all mine, payed with my money...my fuck sweet money....okay...thats the good part....and pretty much the only one.....yeah...
so you know....i have not much to say, but....im not all happyness....again...a few friends left...dont know if i can trust them all...
the few i knew i could trust, passed me away, i guess that one wanst good to trust...any ways, the one i know really will always be with me, is really far....and you know i have lots of friends...amazing ones...but....i fell incomplete....
maybe, you know, im hopping that when i get in london it will get better....so wanna cry right now...but you know, if i cry....it wont fix anything....i fell cold...but not because of the weather...well also cuz of the weather...but i fell cold in side....i dont feel happy at home, i dont fell happy at college, i dont fell happy at work, i dont fell happy when im with my friends...yes i have some good laughs...but that doesnt mean happyness...like at all!!!!!
what i mean is.....i dont know what i really mean......i miss my school days....i miss friends...i miss.....ME!!!!!


THATS RIGHT, I MISS ME!!! I MISS MY SELF....

im not this crazy, old, cranky, mis-loved woman.....hell NOT!!!!!!!

damn it!!!!

"i wanna hear you say that you are sorry again, i wanna hear you say that im so much better than you" - hole


oh fuck no one read this anyways.....
but i wont say what im thinking....just to keep my dignity.....you know right!

my itunes really dont feel me cuz its just sad songs......

"cuz u dont know what u've got untill it's gone"

YEAH...THATS A LOT ITUNES!!!!!!!

oh now im good thats what im talking about itunes... playing velvet revolver....

okay.....what ever....
im gonna download some demi lovato songs...and i dont care what you think about that, or about me now that you read that....undo this ugly face you just did when you read "demi lovato" try to listen some music, pay attention to the lyrics...and then you can tell me that im ridiculous....yes thats right, im rude....so what?

maybe the better for all

you know what? Ive just decided another thing...and may i say..it can be the better for all or not...i know is not the best for me cuz illl be really sad and probably will cry bunches..but i believe is the best i can do right now, if u know what i mean....i will just back off...yeah, back off... I believe is better for me(or not) not to be so close...cuz if it all goes wrong(like it seems to be) i wont be so hurt...
Ive past some realy shit in my way just because i was the nicest one...and i think its time to be harder so i wont sofer later on...
Well....who knows right?....i hope im doing the right thing...for now it seems to be...

OMFG, title?...IDK, WTF...LOL

we may be just a bit weird, but that's what make's us special! im always havin' a goof time with 'em...whem im sad they make me happy, when im fucked up they make me see the better side off all....love you guys, my cook friends..^^ LOL
- well ive seen some really amazing english girls blogs....omg, they'r so stylish, and are no tafraid of wearing any thing, vintage, big heart-shaped glasses..so cool...
my mum is trying to convince me not to go to england, she wants me to go to ireland...really mum? i mean...REALLY?...okay, not against irish people, no way, they seem really nice, polite, drunk(thats not a bad thing!...AT ALL)...but u know, its london for god's sake...i know i might be abused, or i dont know ill-treated sometimes, cuz im brazilian or cuz i may be a bit slow in understanding at begining...i dont know, any thing cat hapen...i just know im going to london, i plan to work, study, date, shop, drink, live, be all happy there...and may be hard, but i know i can do it...i know ill handle it, just hope they let me try to do it, the imigration people...hey accept me, im all nice!!!...lol- and crazy, but thats like bonus...ahahahha-

whatever im just saying shit here right now....ow, i gotta learn blog thing to let my blog pretty...it looks so trashy...well....
i must lunch and get back to work right now...

oh my final exams are over and i'm all smile!!! anyways.....bye, for now...w/e
- and just saying, i'll avoid any thing that may let me sad/mad/angry...however much it hurts me...i figured its the best for all, and for now at least, as im not capable of doing diferent, is better that way, which it seems okay by you, sadly.---ohhhhhh well.....what ever ill not think of it cuz it really makes me sad, and i dont wanna cry right now, cuz i think i wont stop so easyly....

i wont read it all to see if there's some mistakes, so if you find some...sorry! ;)

Doggy pic now ^^

for some reason i cant explain

um dia que eu realmente preferia passar na cama....
perdi a prova de imuno por incompetencia a alheia, me fodi na prova de bioestatistica, me tranquei no banehiro da facul p chorar, uma coisa q eu acho ridicula chorar, por provas....sempre quis bater em meninas que faziam isso, mas hj foi mais forte do que eu, nao chorei pq vou pegar DP ou PRA chorei simplesmente pq ja to cheia....sabe qndo vc vai acumulando TUDO?
-facul
-provas
-iniciaçao cientifica
-viagem
-mac
-mor
-roles
-saudade
-mae
-rollo
-pai
-trampo

vou explodir a qualquer minuto....de vdd....nem iguape me acalmaria agora....
to quase chorando de novo....to postando e preciso trabalhar....mas eu preciso escrever antes que chore aki em cima dos papeis....

o titulo é exatamente oq quer dizer, eu me sinto mto mal pelo mesmo motivo de todos os ultimos posts...e nao muda....achei que me afastando seria melhor, mas nao é, eu preferia estar em londres agora pq eu sei que pelo menos la eu sinto saudade pq REALMENTE nao tem como ver os amigos a nao ser pela net...mas aki, nao tem desculpa e é por isso que a saudade dói dobrada...
mas ó, nao dói mais do que essa cólica q eu to sentindo agora viu....
"you cant always get what you want"
e faz tdo sentindo.....
"but if you try, sometimes you just might find to get what you need"

deixa pra la vai...

who you are?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9VvGp6GH71Y&feature=related

as long as you love baby!!! nossa eu dançava muito essa ai hein.....e se pá ainda manjo uns passos....e quer saber? e daí se eu to cantando MUITO alto e quase chorando...ahahahahah




olha esse entao:
pra esse eu so posso dizer ai melcu
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z7MRwT383qA
amo esse clipe


ela tinha cara de inocente ainda
a musica dela era que tudo q era qria era abraçar ele forte
agora é ela canta sobre menage a troi
saka?
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Fpo9lb6TGgk&playnext_from=QL


oq eu mais dançava e o meu preferido sem duvidas
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3KqnWIIifxA&feature=channel


ahhhh vai me falar q vc n curtia nessa? (LLLLLLLL)- cantando MUITO alto! acho q vou por a letra dessa aki dps viu...pq ó...to curtindo mto mesmo!!!...hahahaha
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qnkwrq39HXw&feature=related


to mo empolgada neam?...nem ligo nao!!! qr ver veja, n qr.....n importa, eu pq eu to amando isso aki...ahahahhaha



OMG OMG OMG nao dava pra ser mais velho, e posso dizer? eu lmebro muito bem esse cpe... medo
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RMLiHUriJ7Y&playnext_from=QL


nao para tudo....esse aqui eu choro litros, pela eternidade e mais dois dias....
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ikI-4D_1s-c&playnext_from=QL
ai meldels, meldels, meldels, meldels...

chorando muito mesmo, em 3...2...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wO3GLcUxJSI&playnext_from=QL



ta chega já....é video mais....
agora to ouvindo dream on - aerosmith ;)
bjs

for now

se na quiser ouvir, pelo menos lê a muscia...na real é mto boa e voce devia MESMO fazer dela seu lema, pq friendship never ends...pelo menos era assim q deveria ser neam...mas ate ai cada um faz oq julga mais importante pra sua vida, uma foda, ou uma amiga....pq ne....bom...chega disso pq eu n sou mais a menininha q dançava spice girls e backstreet boys no patio do predio e que dava indiretinha por nick no msn...e oq eu sinto seja bom ou ruim eu n preciso colar no orkut,ou nick de msn....ah pronto falei.....acho isso infantil, eu falo com qm tem q saber seja eu te amo ou eu to puta, falo com precisa e merece saber e pronto....e no pior dos casos lato tudo aki no blog mesmo, pq a ideia nao é q seja um ''diário'' ??? entao....ta aí....eu escreveria isso no meu diario se ainda existissem desses!!!!...ahhahahah velhotinha!!!
ah blá....foda se viu......to puta mesmo, falo mesmo, baixou a dercy gonçalvez em mim agora td.....À PÁ MERDA TDO MUNDO!!!!! isso ai...


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M3wgaWAHo2Q&feature=related

Yo I'll tell you what I want, what I really really want,
So tell me what you want, what you really really want,
I'll tell you what I want, what I really really want,
So tell me what you want, what you really really want,
I wanna, I wanna, I wanna, I wanna, I wanna really
really really wanna zigazig ha.

If you want my future forget my past,
If you wanna get with me better make it fast,
Now don't go wasting my precious time,
Get your act together we could be just fine.

I'll tell you what I want, what I really really want,
So tell me what you want, what you really really want,
I wanna, I wanna, I wanna, I wanna, I wanna really
really really wanna zigazig ha.

If you wanna be my lover, you gotta get with my friends,
Make it last forever friendship never ends,
If you wanna be my lover, you have got to give,
Taking is too easy, but that's the way it is.

What do you think about that now you know how I feel,
Say you can handle my love are you for real,
I won't be hasty, I'll give you a try,
If you really bug me then I'll say goodbye.

Yo I'll tell you what I want, what I really really want,
So tell me what you want, what you really really want,
I wanna, I wanna, I wanna, I wanna, I wanna really
really really wanna zig zig ha.

If you wanna be my lover, you gotta get with my friends,
Make it last forever friendship never ends,
If you wanna be my lover, you have got to give,
Taking is too easy, but that's the way it is.

So here's a story from A to Z, you wanna get with me
you gotta listen carefully,
We got Em in the place who likes it in your face,
We got G like MC who likes it on an
Easy V doesn't come for free, she's a real lady,
and as for me, ha you'll see,
Slam your body down and wind it all around,
Slam your body down and wind it all around.

If you wanna be my lover, you gotta get with my friends,
Make it last forever friendship never ends,
If you wanna be my lover, you have got to give,
Taking is too easy, but that's the way it is.

If you wanna be my lover, you gotta, you gotta, you gotta,
you gotta, you gotta, slam, slam, slam, slam,
Slam your body down and wind it all around,
Slam your body down and wind it all around,
Slam your body down and wind it all around,
Slam your body down zigazig ah.
If you wanna be my lover.

I don't wanna be anything other than me

i'm tired of all this.....really, i said i was gonna be more "nomariana" but really i can't....LISTEN TO ME.....I'M THIS....IM ALL THAT....THIS IS ME....THIS IS WHO I AM!!!!!

again, i'm so so sorry if i made you mad or sad....you know this was never my intention...and never will be....but you gotta understand me...please...please see my side of the thing....i dont do this on pourpose(is right?) you know me....you know i'd never do any thing see, ANY THING to harm you.....i love you and you know that....and you love me i know....and im glad.....so thankful for having you by my side....

im sorry for today, but you know....im dont regret that...maybe some parts...but i'd probably do all the same...im sorry!

this is me!


and im really thakful for having this amazing bff @ropedrozo, to hold me, hug me, and not letting me cry...and more then ever making me laught....fechando o cu o morro grande..... ;) ....bjs


"beverly hills thats where i wanna be!"

shake it off

so queria poder dizer aqui uma coisa q eu ate ia dizer no twitter mas la n é permanente....entao aki é o melhor pra dizer isso.....
depois de uma "volta" pelo orkut, e ver umas coisas por ali, e ate o @rpedrozo me disse...."faz poker face" logo, esquece, abstrai.....nao dá!!!!
só queria poder dizer q to com um odio tao grande dentro de mim que quase n me cabe.....qro gritar bem alto, e bater demais, surrar tanto ate deformar a cara feia da poha de uma pessoa, pq eu acho que devia ser crime alguem ser tao feio assim.....sei la uma opniao minha neam.....
se nao tivesse um amigo aki do lado pra me abraçar, ia fazer a maldita de alguem agora.....que terror viu....é mto feio eu pensar assim, eu sei, eu sei, mas qr saber? n posso fazer mto contra isso......me sobe uma coisa de la de dentro tao forte....q so falto matar alguem agora.....
ai quer saber? sao mais de quatro da manha, eu me diverti demais hj, e FYI sem vc.....ri demais....dançei demais.....to bem viu.....! thanks for asking ¬¬
vou dormir pq eu realmente to sick of it....of you, of IT, of all this, and all that.....any way......really sad/mad/crazy....


bjs

don't know any title

Eu precisava postar essa muscia AGORA, por que de fato ela diz muito do momento, na verdade nao só do momento, mas do que eu sinto.

FLAWS AND ALL
Beyoncé Knowles


I'm a train wreck in the morning
I'm a Bitch in the afternoon
Every now and then without warning
I can be really mean toward you

I'm a puzzle yes indeed
Ever complex in every way
And all the pieces aren't even in the box
And yet, you see the picture clear as day


I don't know why you love me
And that's why I love you
Catch me when I fall
Accept me flaws and all
And that's why I love you
And that's why I love you


I neglect you when I'm working
When I need attention I tend to nag
I'm a host of imperfection
And you see past all that


I'm a peasant by some standards
But in your eyes I'm a queen
You see potential in all my flaws
And that's exactly what I mean.

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And I really mean that....So here's a thing that I've wrote in my imunology class instead of paying attention, LOL...(minutes latter)...okay forget it, I wont write it here...again , let it be.....I said what I think already, it's up to you now....right, no more of THIS here....don't like to write about it, and all......what ever...
I'm really too confused right now to write any thing that makes any sense at all....

(some more minutes latter)
Well....nothing valid to say, so I'll just be 'shhh' right now...

Going to Iguape for the weekend again... ^^ yaaay \o//


Oh, one thing I rememberd just now....hey other you that I won't say the name either...I love you(still) and I miss you, and I hate little fights that makes absolutly no fucking sense, I know you miss me/us/we too, so please....open your mind/eyes/heart just a bit to see reason....thanks! ;)



now its all....folks...mates...what ever you think you are for me....I don't know

o post de hj é tao de desabafo que se desse como blolquear p ngm ler eu faria isso, é so msm pq eu preciso falar....e as vezes é tudo tao corrido, e tudo tao depressivo tao, restart, que parece que ngm merece/quer/precisa ouvir....ou eu so nao qro contar pra ngm, mas eu preciso falar....
odeio como saber ingles as vezes te deixa um pouco mais depressiva, pq isso significa que vc entende as musicas que ouve, e certas realmente nao ajudam mto em momentos assim, isso te faz querer chorar com musicas como 'last night' do strokes....oq ue de fato é uma coisa mto ridicula né pelo amor de deus, eu tenho oq? 14 de novo? nossa......me sinto a mais ridicula dos seres qndo to nessa poça de tpm dos infernos......nao sou merecedora disso, devo ter catarrado na santa ceia ne, nao é possivel...bom.....sei la.....ja perdi o sentido de ter começado esse post doido, e esse blog tbm.....á pá puta que pariu todo mundo também......eu sou oq? o papa? mae diná? presidente?....nao posso fazer tudo, ser linda, legal e educada ao mesmo tempo né? um dia eu desmorono meu povo.....me deixa paz okay?
qndo isso acontecer e vc perceber....so me da um abraço se sentir que deve, é so disso q eu preciso um abraço tao bom qnto o da minha mae mas que n seja só o dela....poxa.....
tbm to escrevendo td sem mto sentido mas oq vem na minha cabeça msm e pronto.....nao sou pasquale tbm pra escrever tudo certo e com paragrafos, nem ligo pra isso hoje.....

nao sei se sou bipolar ou falsa, ou so mto boa mentindo....pq eu sei rir ali e voltar pro blog e cry my feelings out.....é foda isso, poxa, se eu pudesse seria uma mariana tao diferente dessazinha que sou...menos cri cri, menos velhota reclamona, mais comportada, mais comprometida, mais dedicada, mais cuidadosa, mais carinhosa, mais amigavel.....tao menos MAriana Citty.......*abraço now*.........ai quanto lamento que coisa nojenta, que ser escroto da lama do norte asiático....hunf parei.....

a little bit longer

I was thinking while walking my dog tonight and you know I'm really selfish....because look...my thinking problem was that I don't really have point about beeing so jealous...and so I put all my facts together and suddenly realised that I'm selfish, and not jealous as I thought...really bad to know that, specially about my self!!
So look, the thing that made me reach that conclusion is: I don't really see my self dating or really loving him(like I used to), and I really want him to be as happy as someone can be, because he really is my best friend, he knows me sometimes better than I do, it is of course a bit of jealousy, but all this make me think that is all about beeing selfish...you know, I don't whant him to have someone because he will left me alone, and maybe I don't whant him to have someone because I don't have someone....that's a really awful way to think, and believe me...I feel really embarrassed to say this here because I'm no way proud of it! NO WAY! -
So, that leads us back to this text very first lines...I don't have a point to be so rude, and all this things that I'm, and I know I'm loads of things...
Yeah....all I can say, with all my heart, besides the usual, but true I LOVE YOU is that I'm really, really, really sorry....you have no idea how bad I'm feeling right now, I'm trully so so so so Sorry!!!! Please be happy and please do not live me for beeing so rude all the time.

So, continuing my thought, the conclusion I've reached is from now on, I'll always be queit and polite.

That's all.....for now at least....and just to say, here's a tip...this text is in english 'cuz I know specially you will understand!!!

Thanks for evrything ;)

baby please don't tease

I'm a bit down today...don't know why, really, well I shouldn't be like that 'cuz I was supposed to be relaxed, calm for staying the weekend in Iguape....but no, well at least now, thats not the reality...I'm stressed, I wish so bad I could, just have my "sweet" thing,you know, those things we all want deep inside...well maybe not that deep, but yeah I know we all have wishes...and I'm sure I'm not the only one who "wish so bad" those things....but I really don't care what other people want right now, I want my "wishes" and I want it now....yes I'm spoiled, aaaand no I REALLY don't care what YOU think!!
18h18h now...***wish***, YES, one more!!!!hahaha there's always room for one more!!
I think is the afternoon that is not good for me....I always get down this time....well anyway, I gotta find a biologist job, or I'll get really insane in here, you have ANY idea of how..I don't know...boring, this is for me? it's all gray, all day long, computer, papers, this click noises....HATE THIS.....I AM A BIOLOGIST!!!! B I O L O G I S T!!!!!!!!! I can't take long times with no green, no animals, no real nose, besides ring-rings, and clicks and OMG!!! I am really driving lunatic!!! A zoo would be heaven for me.... =)
- Besides complaining, well I don't have nothing better to say....at least not today, well I do have one more thing to say....I'm really afraid to dissappoint some friends...well if I do, I'm REALLY REALLY REALLY sorry!!! I don't mean to!! and I'll try not to, but you know me.......I'm really open to new friends, and 'we' will be friends!!!!!...positive thoughts!! Yaay


the best side of me....or not! I don't know...LOL

yes, we can!

na cabeça: "Não espere eu ir embora pra perceber, que voce me adora..." acho que é Pitty, nao sei nao!
dia 30/04 foi aniversario do meu Cat e da Carolis, fomos nun karaoke da terceira idade e ahasamos na Madonna!!!...hhahahahahaha, o pós n foi lá essas coisas, mas tudo pelo niver do Cat(@thiagoposarle) né! Bom, várias fotos tiradas, muitas risadas, e....no dia seguinte, que foi a verdadeira batalha, fomos p casa da Carolis, pro Cat falar com a Sogra Zazá....enfim, o dia foi longo, mto stress, mta TPM e nao foi só minha, mas a noite "compençou", foi bacana!!! bom.....domingo foi dia de shopping, foi legal até certo ponto né, que esse povo é mto stressadinho, e nem é de mim que eu to falando!!!!hahahaha

Tá, chega de falar da via alheia, hoje nao fui nem pra facul e nem pro trabalho pra ficar em casa e estudar DEMAIS pra integrada, só de falar nessa prova já me dá uns revertério doidera aqui dentro de mim...que AAAAI meldels, chama o SAMU...ahahahahahahaha - not!!
Vou por uma foto que eu adorei, pq quem esta na foto significa demais pra mim, sao tres pessoas, q eu nn imaginei gostar tanto, tenho muito respeito por eles, muito amor, considereção, e amizade de verdade! e eu sempre pensei que "ahhh A fulanA é minha melhor amigA"....tsc tsc tsc, nao é uma menina, na vdd sao tres...meninos, meninas, pais, maes, tios, IRMÃOS!!!!!! por eles eu ouço madonna, assisto futebol, aprendi de vdd a gostar de futebol, vou no estádio, deixo de estudar, estudo, aprendo, erro, faço, falo, canto, saio feia ou bonita, sou grossa e mal educada no extremo, ajo como nunca me imginei agir, sem vergonha, sem meias palavras, e sempre a menininha q eu sou, mimada, chorona, e carinhosa! - amo voces!



-@ybdantas "mor"; @thiagoposarle "Cat"; @ropedrozo "Rô!" -

aqui, quieta me calo!

"Eu sou mais do que os seus olhos podem ver."